audrey [oh babe]

an extraordinary uncertainty of judgement [The Magicians 4x13]

Last week's season finale of The Magicians kind of -- drop-kicked my writing brain and activated my analytical brain, in ways that have been hard to shake over the last six days. I've been on an information processing jag, following the various media and viewer and fandom responses to the episode, and to the season, and to The Magicians as a whole. And I've been contributing to others' works and thoughts around the episode and the show, in ways that engage the litcrit academic aspects of my thinking, which are never really that far away to begin with.

I don't really have anything to add that the cogent and courageous [personal profile] greywash hasn't put out into the world -- I refer you to their essay On Fannishness, Intersectionality, & a Whole Other Grab-bag of Entitled Millennial Bullshit on Medium [based of initial meta reaction on AO3] to which I am proud and humbled to have contributed to; as well as their thoughtful response to the Physical Kids Podcast episode from last week, responding to the finale alongside guests Lev Grossman (author of the books on which the show is based/consultant to the show) and Olivia Taylor Dudley (who portrays Alice on the show), which covers all the important points raised in our off-DW discussion of the podcast episode -- available on Twitter or on AO3.

I would also direct you to [personal profile] cleolinda's most excellent essay The Magicians S4 Finale Aired Five Days Ago And I'm Still Mad As Hell, which does serious hero's work compiling a -- well -- a fuckton of links about The Magicians and 4x13, and works through both critical and personal responses to the episode with a vigour and determination I can only admire.

That said, there are a few things in particular that I can't quite shake in my own criticism of the show and particularly of 4x13 that I'm going to call out in this post to look at them more clearly. Just in case -- please note that this post contains discussion of depression, mental health, suicidal ideation, and suicide consistent with its presentation in The Magicians and explicitly in response to the presentation of those matters in episode 4x13, "No Better to Be Safe Than Sorry". It also, of course, contains spoilers for The Magicians series to date. Collapse )
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Notes from 3AM, A List

  • I have a sleep disorder that basically means my body is always trying to be awake during the nighttime hours and sleep during most of the daytime hours; and usually I'm awake for like twenty-thirty hours at a time, and then sleep for 8-11. Its -- challenging? Is that sufficient to convey the situation? It's more or less equivalent to being eternally jet-lagged. It affects .13-.17% of the population -- so pretty rare -- and is probably genetic in origin. The upshot is that I am usually awake when most people are asleep; if I'm lucky the folks in GMT will be waking up only a few scant hours after the folks in PST go to sleep. Mostly though I am alone with my thoughts. 
  • I cannot stop thinking about The Magicians, which I guess is no big surprise, but I've been in analytical mode for the last five days; and right now there is no more Magicians information to process, but I can't get my brain out of analytical mode. Which -- I can't write, despite wanting to write; and I can't read because I'm in the wrong processing space for fanfiction; and I can't (easily) shift out of thinking and wanting to think about The Magicians to finish off my library books. It's like -- my brain is the spinny beach ball you get on a Mac when a process hangs up. 
  • But seriously I have so many things I want to be writing. 
  • Alternatively I wish I could be talking to someone because sometimes that can be sufficient to get me out of one mode or another, but see again, 0300 PST. 
  • I have exhausted Twitter, Tumblr, and Dreamwidth. 
  • Regardless, I have a doctor's appointment at 0715 PST, four hours from now, so -- somehow I gotta get through. 
  • I hope you are all having a restful night's sleep.
audrey [oh babe]

FIC: both her terror and her gentleness, by templemarker [The Magicians]

both her terror and her gentleness by [personal profile] templemarker

Rating: Mature
Length: 1700 words
Content notes: No warnings apply.
Author notes: Takes place during 4x12 "The Secret Sea", during the scene where Alice, Penny, Quentin, and Plover are in the Drowned Garden. I wanted to dig into Alice's perspective on, well, everything in the episode. For [community profile] fan_flashworks challenge #260 - Cave, and my [community profile] fan_flashworks bingo card square "step".

Summary: On her better days, Alice can believe that she once understood the world, enough to live in it like a person, a person with a soul. The person she was before she was a Niffin, before she cursed her friends to obscurity and herself to the Library's imperfect incarceration.

both her terror and her gentleness

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PODFIC: memory serves, by templemarker [The Magicians]

memory serves [podfic] (33 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater
Additional Tags: it's not NOT quentin-eliot, they're always in the background, Depression, canon-typical suicidal references, fuck me what a tag, Canon Disabled Character, Disabled Character, Mental Health Issues, Monsters, q could really use that filliorian opium right about now, Podfic, Podfic & Podficced Works, Podfic Length: 0-10 Minutes, Read by the Author

Summary:

But this is far from the first time Quentin has sat in a room with a monster that has a vested interest in fucking Quentin up from the inside out.
 

[image description: cover image of "memory serves" podfic]

Memory Serves

written by templemarker

recorded by templemarker

Approximately 7 minutes in length; mp3 file with embedded cover image.

Right-click save file as: memory serves



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FIC: we can't give you love and rhetoric without the blood, by templemarker [The Magicians]

we can't give you love and rhetoric without the blood (1100 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh, Quentin Coldwater/Alice Quinn, Quentin Coldwater & Margo Hanson, Quentin Coldwater & Julia Wicker, William "Penny" Adiyodi & Quentin Coldwater, Quentin Coldwater/Margo Hanson/Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater, therapists - Character, Therapists (Multiple)
Additional Tags: Mental Health Issues, Canon Disabled Character, canon-typical suicidal references, there's that tag again, Depression, Disabled Character, Bisexuality, Bisexual Male Character, Bisexual Character, Canon Bisexual Character, Bisexual Erasure, Therapy, Interventions, (entirely background interventions), Therapists, that good ol-fashions therapy runaround, look I really feel like all these relationships are entirely justified despite occurring off screen, so about that fillorian opium
Series: Part 2 of love + rhetoric + blood
Summary:

Quentin had tried, okay, he was trying. He even agreed, although it was kind of under duress -- it was like Eliot and Margo and Julia and Alice and even fucking Penny, who wasn't even from this fucking timeline and still defaulted to hating Quentin's guts -- decided Intervention Tuesday was the way to go.



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FIC: memory serves, by templemarker [The Magicians]

memory serves (1018 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater
Additional Tags: it's not NOT quentin-eliot, they're always in the background, Depression, canon-typical suicidal references, fuck me what a tag, Canon Disabled Character, Disabled Character, Mental Health Issues, Monsters, q could really use that filliorian opium right about now, Podfic Available
Series: Part 1 of love + rhetoric + blood
Summary:

But this is far from the first time Quentin has sat in a room with a monster that has a vested interest in fucking Quentin up from the inside out.


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audrey [oh babe]

FIC: Imagination Succumbs, by templemarker [The Magicians]

Imagination Succumbs (1035 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh, Arielle/Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh, Arielle/Quentin Coldwater, Arielle & Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater, Eliot Waugh, Arielle (The Magicians), Theodore “Ted” Rupert Coldwater-Waugh
Additional Tags: art for art's sake, let me see your etchings, Humor, theories about the mosaics, Mosaic Timeline, that fillorian opium is really working overtime
Series: Part 3 of Mind Over Time
Summary:

Quentin takes a nap, and when he wakes up, Eliot looked pleased.

This is alarming for several reasons: a) "pleased" on Eliot looks a lot like the smirk his Gramma's cat wore whenever she shat in Quentin's shoes; b) they don't have a mirror so Quentin can't be sure Eliot didn't get bored and draw shit on his face; but most importantly, c) Quentin really has to reach for the last time he saw Eliot look pleased.

He thinks it was back when Eliot was regaling him with his scandals at Ibiza.

Yikes.



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FIC: All That's Known, by templemarker [The Magicians]

All That's Known (781 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater, Eliot Waugh
Additional Tags: Bisexuality, Bisexual Erasure, there's a reason for the 'b' in lgbtq, carrot wine, intimacy issues, no one made them do it, Eliot are you listening - no one made him do it, policing queerness in a soft and self-destructive way, two percent opium in the air
Series: Part 2 of Mind Over Time
Summary:

Quentin thrusts his hands into his hair, undoing the loose tie he's been wearing lately -- his hair off his face looks great on him -- and the fine threads spill over his fingers. Eliot doesn't know what it says about him that Quentin in agitation is as much of a turn-on as Quentin thirsty to suck his cock or Quentin focused on solving a problem, but, well, there it is.



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FIC: Pace is the Trick, by templemarker [The Magicians]

Pace is the Trick (1002 words) by templemarker

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Magicians (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh
Characters: Quentin Coldwater, Eliot Waugh
Additional Tags: Kinktober, Kinktober 2018, Deepthroating, Blow Jobs, Established Relationship, Bisexual Male Character
Series: Part 1 of Mind Over Time
Summary:

"Slow down," Eliot chokes out, half-laughing, definitely tipsy on kind-of vodka and infinitely patient with his big fucking dick. "You don't have anything to prove to me, Q, don't fuck up your throat."



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Dear Yulewriter, 2016 Edition

::blows dust off everything::

Hello, tidings, thank you for writing!

I am very much about optional details are optional, and I am very bad about, uh, well, prompting. I'm more of a "hey, I like this" without too much details. But! I am very easy to please.

My one thing is that, around the holidays, I'm more inclined towards lighthearted, slice of life, happy endings stories than ones that dig into the dark bits of the canon or characters. That doesn't mean you have to shove them into an Ikea and pretend there's no shadows! I'd just rather read about the marker falling a little more on the good than the bad.

Fandoms are listed alphabetically.

Lucifer (TV)
[Lucifer, anyone]

I am just in love with everything about this. I've been sitting with the comics for years and love them dearly, so you're welcome to pull from there if you like, but don't feel like you have to do so if you're not familiar with it!

Mostly I love Lucifer -- the way Tom Ellis portrays such a wonderful mixture of vulnerability and bravado is perfection. So focusing on him would be welcome.

I'm open to just about any iteration -- gen, het, slash -- with any of the characters. I do love Lucifer and Chloe, and how he's changed because of her, even if he doesn't particularly know why. And I adore Trixie's adoration of Lucifer as well, and how uncomfortable but affectionate it make Lucifer.

I'm also very into the Big Picture storyline, the family melodrama mixed with the judeo-christian mythology and how it impacts the life on human-filled earth.

I am up to date with the show and will be throughout the fall, so you're welcome to write it as close to canon as you care to do so. I'd prefer no AUs, and if you're going with an AR I'm more into the fork-in-the-road kind of AR than the what-if-there-were-dragons sort. Have fun with it!

Possible Scenarios:

- Lucifer and the bemoaning of Christmas
- Lucifer and Amanadiel being bros, especially Amenadiel's older-brother poking at Lucifer, even though Amanadiel would be younger, right?
- Lucifer doing nearly anything with Trixie, with or without adult supervision
- Lucifer, Amenadiel, and Mum dining with the Deckers

Fandom-specific dislikes: alternate universes, hating on Don outside of the usual Detective Douche business

Tone preference: a little closer to heaven than purgatory

Rivers of London
[Peter Grant, Beverly Brook]

I adore Beverly. She's a perfect cocktail of sexy, practical, and light-hearted, and I think Peter needs her, very much, in his life. I would love to see Peter's imperfect attempts to set up dates, or Bev's careful erosion of Peter's hang-ups as they build their relationship. Future-fic would also be lovely -- where do a wizard and a river end up in ten years, together? Do each of their mums badger them for grankids enough that it does happen?

Don't feel compelled to go holiday themed, though you're welcome to do so, but I would love to see a light-hearted, romancey vibe, and how Peter begins to adult more.

Possible Scenarios:

- Peter nutting up and asking Bev out on dates, and being rubbish at it, because the boy has rarely dated before
- Beverly being there, more and more, without Peter explicitly realizing how close and important she's become, until he gets a cluestick to the head
- Futurefic, ten years gone: does Bev even want to be a spouse? Does Peter, given how his parents' relationship turned out? What do wizard-river children end up being, other than awesome?
- Crossover with Law and Order (UK), because the negotiation of those two verses would be hilarity, and I adore the notion of Alicia Phillips being Peter's cousin who has very little time for his fanciful job.

Fandom-specific dislikes: Over-veneration of Nightengale, female characters interpreted as bitchy, slagging off Lesley, whinging too much about Lesley

Tone preference: More sharing a bedsit in the country than face-melting villains.

Stranger Things (TV)
[Nancy Wheeler, Jonathan Byers, Steve Harrington]

I have a thing about seeing what characters we meet as teenagers are like as adults, because the gulf between 17 and 35 is vast and terrible.

I very much want to see this OT3 ten or twenty years on. Maybe they meet up again at the high school reunion, and sparks fly? Maybe two of them got together, in college or something, and reel the third one back into their lives? Or, and this is something I itch for a bit, maybe in ten or twenty years they are all together (from whenever: high school, college, early twenties, wherever you find it most plausible and interesting) and they've figured out their lives together. What does that look like? Who are they, as adults? Who are they, with each other? What do they do? What curtains do they buy???

Ahem. Inquiring minds would love to know. You're welcome to pull the horror element in there if it works for you, but I'll be just as happy with a slice of life fic as an adventure story, if they're together (or getting together) as adults.

Possible scenarios:

- Patrick Henry HS invites you to our Twenty Year Reunion! RSVP with your Guest!
- College is the chance to get away. What do you do when you run into your HS gf/bf(s)? How have you changed? How have they? Is there still something there?
- Apartment hunting in the city for three people. "So you have...roommates?"
- They may have jobs, they may have an adult relationship, but the thrill of monster hunting....never dies.

Fandom-specific dislikes: alternate universes, alternate realities, bad-talking any of the OT3 except in relationship-relevant ways, Nancy portrayed as weak or in need of protection

Tone preference: More sleeping in the same room, less watching your best friend die.